Tuesday, January 10, 2006

insecurity..

i am happy whenever im around her.. but i cant escape nor can i ever rid of the feeling that has befallen me each time i take time to think.. i feel insecure.. i face e fear.. e fear of losing my loved one to someone else.. or literally lose her as it is.. lose her cos of my own inseciurities.. no matter each time i succeed in making her laugh.. making her happy.. i juz feel that i have not done and never will do enough for my loved one.. so what can i do to make myself feel sure.. to make myself put on a brave front as i face each day with the risk.. the risk of losing her..

i love her more than she loves me.. yet that could even lead to my own downfall.. maybe im putting on too much of a pressure on her.. making things difficult as it is.. expecting too much out of my only love.. what do i do then to make things right..

what is left for me to do.. do i run the risk with every step of the way.. do i ruin the relationship.. im the villain.. im the monster in the story.. let the hero come and save e day..

im sorry dear..

posted by: mfirdie @ 6:28 AM

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