Wednesday, January 04, 2006

late night session..

i wonder what it is that keeps me awake.. whether it is the midnight breeze.. haha what a load of rubbish.. nah im awake cos im not asleep yet which means i dun feel like sleeping yet.. im on the phone with dear dear now.. so nice to listen to her sweet voice thos she took a long time in calling me.. dilly dally in bathing and then washing up.. well its okie she juz got home from work.. yup so late yet she juz came home.. what am i ever going to do with this girlfriend of mine..

im worried about her actually.. coming home so late at these times and then my inability to pick her up from work and stuffs.. i dun like the feeling.. i juz feel unsafe not able to make sure that my gf is safe.. she keeps reminding me that she will take care of herself but yet nothing has convinced me to let her be on her own.. izzit my lack of trust or was it my insecurity.. im not realli sure either ways.. i juz feel that noone else can do a better job of keeping her safe than myself.. is that called self belief or over protective.. maybe it comes from my attitude of not easily trusting ppl or perhaps trusting noone at all..

i guess i juz have to accept the fact of her job and the time constraints that goes along with it.. im not happy nor comfortable with the whole arrangement and her choice of job.. but whats done is done i guess and not much i can do.. i hope everything goes well and nothing bad happens.. i love u dear..

posted by: mfirdie @ 7:44 AM

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