Wednesday, February 08, 2006

the end of the week has arrived and who noes what lays in store for me in the upcoming days.. my life has been a mess and it will always will be.. feeling the downside of things has became common challenges of life that remains to exist in mine.. ever so stubbornly refusing to stay away.. but what can i do but accept its arrival and therefore welcomes its presence in my life already full of mishaps..

i juz feel that i am not able to do anything right.. always making ppl unhappy.. making myself unhappy.. that for certain does not do much for a boost of morale.. am i just a shadow of my former self.. the one who wrote bout enjoying life.. the one whose aim to live was to have fun.. the one whose life was filled with fun.. where had alll the fun go? where did it go and cruelly left me behind.. given a choice would i follow?

u all should thank Him that u all are not me.. onli i noe what kind of trouble i have got myself into.. my decisions made.. im not worthy of any of u.. i juz bring pain and suffering wherever i go.. am i the angel of suffering den? wy den would it still be called an Angel? i test my endurance and perseverance in getting thru these tough times.. i pray that i will emerge from the darkness.. not as a survivor but someone who has to go through something which was worse than what he had been through.. from the shadows to the darkness right into a bottonless pit..

posted by: mfirdie @ 4:16 PM

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