Friday, February 03, 2006

wy do i fall in love.. wy do i immerse myself in this dreamy world.. wy do i imagine myself to be this ultimate person that im not.. love stories remain to be a fiction and now after so long, ive begin to doubt the power of love.. yes, even me.. the love sick one.. ive fallen and liked so many in a small period of time.. noone doubts the power of my love.. i believe it was intense feeling and i care so much about my loved ones.. yet reciprocated i was not able to receive.. i continued giving and giving... yet i do not receive the substantial amount needed for me to keep on believing.. now i ask.. what is this thing called 'love' that i was so sure for so long.. how is love going to help me.. how issit going to change me.. i do all things for love.. i sacrifice my life for love.. i gave up everything i had for love.. and now i ask all for wad? for love? yes i answered, for love.. No i answered, i do not receive love.. yet what do i receive.. i received rejection.. i received dejection.. noone believes in love like i do.. noone wants to believe in love..they all fear being in love.. love hurts they say.. they say true.. love truly hurts, i agree.. but for a person who personified love.. i took it all in my stride.. wy izzit that im not afraid? wy izzit that i give so much? who am i truly? me myself do not know.. what do i have that is so special that allows me to do all this? what have i done to deserve all this? how did i endure all this hurt within me?

The answer is.. im a normal being.. and like every normal being.. they one day crumple and wilt.. today is the day for me..

posted by: mfirdie @ 8:44 AM

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