Friday, March 31, 2006
tmrw is my dance finals..
i think it will be e last one for me..
*shrugs*
posted by: mfirdie @ 12:56 AM
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i think it will be e last one for me..
*shrugs*
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
i live in a silent world..
im silenced..
posted by: mfirdie @ 11:02 PM
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Monday, March 20, 2006
guys simply cant be trusted..
guys are not meant to be trusted..
im a guy..
put the pieces together..
you'll get it..
i cant be trusted..
posted by: mfirdie @ 9:00 PM
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Sunday, March 19, 2006
20th March 2006
4 years ago would have marked the 1st month i had been with my dear.. acquainted at a time slightly a few months back we got together on the 20th of february on the year of 2002.. what a remarkable date it was in writing.. 20-02-2002.. and so with each passing year we will get to witness the remarkable date on our monthly anniversary with this year falling on the 20th of June where the date will read 20-06-2006.. and so awaiting for that special date to come each year will be proven to a tough and challenging time.. living with our differences and further accomodating of one another hopefully till the end of the remarkable dates befalling in the year 2012.. for the last time wen we can ever celebrate our monthly anniversary on the month of December where the date will read as 20-12-2012..
had an early start to my day.. woke up at around 630 probably groggily listening to the conversation of my mom and siblings on their way to school.. one week hols has proved to be over for them and for the rest of u schooling ones and its back to school.. commotion revolves around teh transfer of schools.. my sis's pri school has been relocated and therefore requiring transport in order to attend school which was originally located juz a block away from our home.. discussion on hu to send her there and hu would be home in teh afternoon to fetch her home.. what time would she end school, whether she had remedial and yada yada yada.. so there u go a noisy and early start to the morning.. the night before was a late one too i guess with a particular conversation on trading my V3 with another dealer.. pretty excited and hype and hopefully i can bank in on some cash for my new trade.. heard its worth 300 and minus off a few bucks i am expecting no less than 280.. sorry y'all its gonna be all mine.. so lets say i have that.. lets round it down a bit to 250.. plus my current phone now 6170.. possibility of selling it to my buddy at 200 or its value of trade in at 150, add that two numbers together giving me a value of 400-450? roughly in that region..
lets see now my desired phone is retailing at 598? so with 400 im left with 200 dollars to top it all up.. now wer can i get that amount of money.. i noe i have 400 bucks in the bank right now.. my overdued expenses had come and now being left with another 200 dollars to collect.. and so if i were to use this overdue 200 for the purchase of my phone would it den be worth it? i dunno juz a tot.. hopefully in a few weeks time or months possibly there would be a slight decrease in the price of the phone themselves or maybe i can recheck the value and such.. so yup onto my way for a new phone..
finally a shout out to faliq for making it to the next round of SI this morning..
being the 2nd one of the day to receive that golden ticket..
and i am in his house now, on his computer and where is that potential SI?
snoring away on his bed.. shucks.. he needs an image consultant..
posted by: mfirdie @ 11:30 PM
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Saturday, March 18, 2006
me am fearless..
have been constantly listening to Jay's song for the soundtrack of Fearless.. the jet li film.. and mesmerized i was.. i always liked this kind of ethnic kind of thing.. in the music video he and a group of dancers wore a kind of chinese gongfu outfit and danced to the hyper song.. kinda cool to me.. maybe so cos im slightly slunted to chinese side of anything.. got 19/20 for my essay for China in history too.. in a class of majority Chinese and of China as a matter of fact.. something is wrong with me.. yup.. i guess im impressed by the slick moves or juz the song actually.. my dear would none be too happie tho whenever i go, "Huo Huo Huo Huo Huo Huo Huo Huo!!!".. frown and cringe her face..
thinking as far as this i dreamed abt competing in a solo dance competition using the song plus the theme.. cos for me.. i like things different.. im an august baby!! yup.. so hip hop is cool so is breakdancing.. but erm.. too common?? im not into it.. realli.. somebardee is already up there somewer proclaiming to be the best.. but me.. well ive yet to find my forte.. yeah.. haha so in between the lines of performing using the song.. i thought abt the various possibility of yup firstly as a solo.. maybe pair too with my dear.. but u think she will agree.. with her stage fright plus she hates jay's songs.. perhaps put that thought a bit further back.. and finally seeing as how.. erm.. M.F.S.T.K.B performed with those lil kiddies at DanceWorks, i had a thought of performing with my group of cuzzins.. all 13 of us haha.. using that song yes.. but niwaes yar.. another far fetched kind of idea.. the song juz finished on my player too.. so ya.. haha.. juz a tot for the day..
Huo Huo Huo Huo Huo Huo Huo Huo!!!
posted by: mfirdie @ 11:47 PM
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money woes to come again..
i spent 10 dollars on transportation in two daes.. i juz topped up my farecard yesterday ard 7pm for my trip over to boon lay for dance practice and by the end of today's outing the value has dropped to a negative 5 cents.. i love it and find it challenging to squeeze all the value out of my beloved card.. even if i have 4 cents left in the card that will ensure me a bus trip home.. for today no such luck.. i remembered once i was left with 3 cents in my card.. haha and now my aspiration is to get 1 cent left and take a trip home worth $1.15 cents from boon lay to clementi..
hmm to expo went today.. met yijie and kaiting working for that bookfair.. been a while realli since i last talked to them or even meet.. truthfully throughout my 2 years in poly.. with the same ppl.. i rubbed a few shoulders the wrong way.. yup so practically im like the most hated one in class.. not in terms of anyways la juz i guess my different way of thinking.. typical ppl cant stand me.. i choose to think in a different manner while the rest align themselves together.. well maybe typically too being the black amongst the whites.. i dunno but i dun think i ended my two years in poly with how i got started in teh 1st place.. well every doggone idiot will have his day and me too... maybe i have had my day and now left to suffer or perhaps it will come back someday.. all i noe is that im left with 1 year in my contract with Ngee Ann Poly and going into the 3rd yr in specialization, i dun realli noe wad to expect.. im sure im not getting my 1st choice which is Tourism & Leisure Management(thanks, to my poor results in teh semester..).. i am happie for that actualli realli hoping that i did not get that one.. so yup.. for the rest of my choices i forgot wad i chose..expecting perhaps a more hectic workload next sem with the possibility of repeating certain modules which i may have a high chance of failing.. yup.. so there u go plus potentially two juniors entering Ngee Ann in the form of my 2 dancemates(one enrolled, while another still on the verge of requesting for transfer to either NP or SP..) so yup looking forward to being a senior to this two/one..
finally my new maybe same classmates who i will be working with in the new semester..
expanding my social circle ppl..
posted by: mfirdie @ 5:02 AM
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Friday, March 17, 2006
i am not normal..
at least i dun think i am in anyways.. the ever so often response i get from everyone would be "You're crazy.." well in some ways yes of cos i dun deny that.. crazee in certain ways certainly and everyone becomes crazee at one point or another.. from the very start i had always have the uncanny feeling that im not normal.. i dun do things ppl normally do, i dun think the way ppl do and i do things a whole lot different than the others.. im a more exquisite kind of being where i cease to be different than anyone else.. one look at me and u wont like me.. onli till u speak to me when the smiles comes out and the infamous lameness spread through where the likeable me will come about.. i dunno i guess i have e obnoxious look.. everyone says so..
im not friendly although deemed to be.. neither am i an extrovert even tho claimed to be.. im onli outspoken in a room full of ppl i noe and in others im as meek as a mouse.. im not brave as ppl claim me to be and even tho im happie with a bunch of ppl at my side, more often than not i choose to hide in my own personal corner and reminisce about my life.. this life im living what i went through and what i want to do.. so today on a practical dae of 17th march.. my 1st ever gf birthday.. i choose to tell u a lil bit more abt me that u wont noe or maybe have not heard of.. a lil glimpse into the life of mfirdie.. one whom u call fir, feer, daus and all the rest..
todae it came again my indigenous thought.. wy am i living in Singapore.. was i literally put here.. think about it of all places in the world, why Singapore.. that does not stop there too.. will go ahead to think about why Singapore, why Clementi, why this family, why this why that.. i have a lot of questions in my head at all times and ppl do get tired of answering them.. or the way i see it prefer me not to noe.. i feel that im being put here.. i feel that im not supposed to be here.. im under surveillance, im a test subject and everyone noes except for me.. wishful thinking eh? well but thats me.. whenever im alone and stuffs i look around trying to find that "hidden camera".. wondering.. constantly wondering.. i always imagine that behind those walls were actually empty or perhaps they were discussing scenes, putting make up.. u noe all the extras in my life.. well all e sacrifices they have to go thru in terms of acting as someone close to me and stuffs.. pretty much entertainment huh? celebrated test subject.. i dunno thats the way i think..
mfirdie is pretty.. pretty-weird if u ask me..
Hey you.. stop watching me..
posted by: mfirdie @ 12:51 AM
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Thursday, March 16, 2006
for this past week i dun feel that i am that FAT anymore.. yes i do still have my trusty tummy with me but at least i no longer am heavily pregnant.. my 'foetus' has shrunk in size from six months to a lil bit under 2 months and i feel good abt that.. HAHAHAHAHHAHA.. i din do much realli.. i guess i was too conscious of the state that i was in and became more aware of the things i eat the quantity and cut down tremendously.. i dun rush to the kitchen every now and then whenever i am hungry.. i no longer eat 3 times a day.. in fact everytime i eat it would be half as much as the last time i used to it.. no more frequent trips to macdonalds or any other fast food at that matter and cutting down on midnight snacks..
whoohoohoo.. so cutting down on the slack.. gonna be working out quite a bit and in no time "Voila".. the new me.. heh..
posted by: mfirdie @ 1:56 AM
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Tuesday, March 14, 2006
i feel pathetic..
noone can do anything abt it..
n the one who can,
will not do anything about it..
there u go..
posted by: mfirdie @ 11:09 PM
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dance dance dance
its onli appropriate that this entry is written after the advert of the new reality show.. "So You Think U Can Dance?".. what a couple of dweebs will do for fame.. dancing like amateurs will do and so do JC guys trying to act cool on the dance floor at clubs.. not that i have seen one that is just something ive heard from my buddies who go clubbing ever so often.. chiding the JC guys awful dancing skills.. truthfully i dun think either my buds are of quality dancing too.. sorrie to say.. ur faces just do not fit the criteria of dancers and to put it simply.. ive seen u all dance( or tried to dance) and i think my sec 1 orientation batch of dancers have better skills than the both of u.. so ya.. u get the idea ehz..
so actualli im here to complain.. complain about my dance members.. they seem to be very busy as of late.. im not working becos for fear of commitment problems while the others are.. practices have been far from a few and i guess their mindset is not at the right place.. finals is juz below three weeks of time and u all are talking abt what? Levis? a competition that we all have not confirmed of participating in and the least of my interest.. choreographing for it instead of concentrating in the finals? hmm sorrie guys.. unlike all of u im pretty hyped about this finals and would actualli prefer to be in the top 2.. mind my words not top 3.. top 2!! and with the rest of the ppl in a slacking mode.. not happening.. im actually thinking of the 1000 plus worth of monetary terms instead of being contented with $200.. so yup i realli think we shud buck up.. hope can put other stuffs aside for this period of time and focus on the dance itself.. and to end it all up.. if we dun ever have a chance to top 3 in DanceWorks 2006.. im backing out of Levis.. yup.. honestly no top 3 in this comp.. and it could spell the hanging of my dancing shoes..
posted by: mfirdie @ 7:36 AM
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Sunday, March 12, 2006
anger angst angry
hmm do we really treat everyone equally? can we claim that we will do same for a fren similar to a deed to a stranger? are we then guilty of treating others unfairly.. with the right of preference we tend to treat some better than others catering to privileges that we wish to present to the fortunate ones while the rest to put it harshly.."Can Go To Hell".. like the prank i used to play.. whenever someone rudely says "wadever" to me, portraying ignorance in my comment or something i have said.. i replied.. "ever-ready get set.. go" which without fail will have the sarcastic person asking.. "Go where?".. well u have ur way then.. right where u wan him.. and then u make ur own come-back.. "Go to hell, Buster" and ya he will try to retort back in something lame.. but by then ull be rejoicing abt the way u got him where u wanted him to be.. then again this lil prank of mine would be reserved to those i dun usually like.. so for those of u who din get tricked.. there left 2 possibilities.. firstly i love u all so so much to use such words against u or in another way, i dun like u but yet u have not used the word "whatever" to me.. wanna noe whether ur liked? try that on me and ull noe.. dun regret knowing tho..
so back to where i was.. with this unfair treatment we have the different levels of behaviour.. maybe tolerance could be an issue.. not being able to stand ur idiot brother for barely a minute while u still can keep smiling while ur "special" fren keeps on yakking for two hours with saliva practically dripping down ur face.. hey thats unfair no matter whose the one suffering in either of those two scenarios.. perhaps significance could be another matter.. truthfully a paperheart made by that creepy weirdo of an admirer is so disgusting and revolting yet when presented by ur prince charming... WOW!! a golden coated heart presented to u on a golden coated dish.. such remarkable difference one can be.. typically humans.. and me too am guilty of such a behaviour..
so have u been unfair to anyone today?
posted by: mfirdie @ 5:09 AM
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Saturday, March 11, 2006
i noe i can make all e mistakes in the world..
but one day will come..
when she will no longer love me..
posted by: mfirdie @ 10:56 PM
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erm..
i was chatting with my gf on the phone wen she made a comment.. i kept quiet for a while and suddenly she started raising her voice an bursts into tears..
i laid there in awe.. and was like wad e hell happened? forgive me for being ignorant but she was practically wailing while im left there scratching my head abt wad i did..
after a few shouts/screams she hanged up the phone..
hmm i dun understand girls.. sorrie..
posted by: mfirdie @ 8:02 AM
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Friday, March 10, 2006
money money money
realli been thru a rough patch of financial problems as of late.. up till date minus three days ago im owed a total of 800 dollars worth of allowance.. im supposed to receive a monthly allowance of 200 dollars but all has gone kapoot!! and now im left poor as hell.. for e record i have 12 dollars left in my wallet.. where 10 will contribute to topping up my farecard and that will leave me with a measly amount of 2 dollars.. damn am i proud of it.. wad can i sae den im poor as hell yet none believed it.. and due to this two debts pile up.. for example i had to borrow 300 odd dollars from my gf to pay off all the debts that have been preparing my death sentence if i were not to pay up anytime soon.. but hey on a brighter side i won prize money!! for my dance competition but as of yet.. spent on other stuffs to "enhance" the dance performance.. dun think its much need.. i dunno the decision dosen lie with me either ways..
talking about money.. i have been persistently trying to sell off my V3 for as long as i have known but yet to no avail.. it was not the lack of suitors.. it was juz that they asked for ridiculous offers or some eventually lost interest halfway thru discussion.. quoting from Russell Peters, "Indians cannot live without a bargain, Chinese cannot give a bargain".. putting the racial jokes aside that opinion has its truth too.. buyers will not buy without attaining a bargain and sellers have e difficulty in giving one.. me however have always been on the stupid list.. back in the daes wen i was selling/trading/buying trading cards it was to happen.. i would purchase at high prices but yet sell at low measly prices but then again i was an avid collector so meaning i didnt mind spending that much for those stupid cards.. yet again another issue for another day..
offers ranging from trading phones plus bargaining choices of selling at 20 bucks off the lowest price.. i dun realli noe wy they bother asking.. aniwae selling off to purchase a new phone.. probably a N70 or even N6680.. i noe i noe.. im poor yet i spend so much.. think of it in this way.. Accounts Receivable = 800.. i have my assets to back me up okie.. its juz my creditors take too long to pay.. quoting from Ina too.. "Show Me The Money..."
posted by: mfirdie @ 6:36 PM
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regret regret regret..
like as stated that would be what i would wan to touch on the topic of regret.. regrets occur ever so frequently in all of our lives.. yet wy izzit so? with so many decisions to make and whats more the end result being in our own will of power but yet regrets still cease to exist.. it juz remind us of the known fact that we all could at one point of time or another opt for hasty decisions that paves its way onto regrets.. regret is a feeling that we could even feel ever so frequent making it a habit.. habitually regretting the decisions we make yet with no attention paid its repeated time and time again.. yet we all will eventually live a life of regrets.. is that how one has to live by?
regretting your own actions has been ever so common.. overcome with emotions we blindly oblige with the devil in us.. enticed by the lure of goodies we followed greed in its path.. however it all does not end there.. as it is regret would be an aspect that exist in something u both do or didnt.. we noe that there are things that we regret doing.. and yes there would also be existence on the other side, touching on the things that we regret not doing.. thus comes to a point why many of us live a life of regrets.. can it truly be stopped.. seems difficult and almost impossible aight.. well that is the way it goes i guess.. truly in my opinion i have found yet another element in life that we cannot escape from.. firstly, the very well known fact, the end of life.. Death in itself.. secondly, coming close to that will be regret..
hey hey hey..
me too am human aight and i do too commit or plainly pass out chances that i eventually regret.. engulfed in emotions i have been practically blinded by all evils of the earth and then when the smoke has cleared.. shucks i shouldnt have done that.. we all noe how it feels like and at one point or another been in a similar situation.. and there will be the times too.. shucks i shud have done that.. and it certainly brings bad consequences.. like for the things i "misplaced".. haha sorry dear.. i regret doing all those stuffs similar with regretting writing down that similar sentence too.. regret regret regret.. but at the end of the day what can we do.. lets sit down brood and collectively retell thetimes wen we all have been a victim of regret.. shucks.. i regret writing down this entry too long..
posted by: mfirdie @ 6:45 AM
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Wednesday, March 08, 2006
thurs thurs thurs
being the forth dae of the week its getting intense.. intense in the sense of everything finally coming together for the big big finale.. i feel uptight now at this moment without any solid reason to be.. perhaps its the feeling of being slacking all this while.. anticipating my exam results and job hunt.. not to forget the all important dance comp preparations that has yet to commence(hmm.. that certainly needs work).. so finally at least i can put my big big face at the start of the entry at least i think its cool and i was pondering on a few ideas in changing the layout of my blogger.. but till now juz cannot find too many photos.. new ones at that to replace the current so certainly been putting it on hold..
juz realised that i had become one of the victims of a bogus bidder on ebay.. i put out 2 auctions for the sale of my phone.. A Motorala Razr V3 for the price of 220.. received quite a few prepositions on the sale with offers from many.. i dunno much.. many certainly demanded early deals but as i was i begin to be insecure.. firstly i felt it was good to end it early in the sense that they have the capital ready for the purchase and yet i can finally let it go after a long while of waiting for selling the item.. starting at a price of 200-220.. i received offers ranging all the way till 235.. for me it was okie.. but yet it was onli 3 daes into the auction.. i was certainly banking on higher offers being evident in the later stages.. hey ull never noe, greedy as i was.. Finally i was close to deal with the price of 235 when i received an email on ebay stating that my auction had closed with the winner at 302.. man.. it was totally off the mark.. by den i already prayed that let it not be a bogus bidder cos it will certainly suck big time.. well true to my word and i had resubmitted my auction for the phone.. oh yeah.. anyone interested can contact me too k.. selling pretty low.. totally bummed out by the whole selling experience.. shucks it sucks being on this side of the deal..
posted by: mfirdie @ 10:57 PM
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hello hello hello
firstly, Chelsea lost in the Champions League!! hahahahaha.. i stayed up to watch the match and now being 430pm marks the 1st hour in when i was awake.. anyway the score was 1-1 with the most unnecessary of penalties given in the 93rd min.. haix.. but the first time i watched Ronaldinho play.. awesome man!! his bag of tricks worked.. pity that Messi had to come off in the 24th minute if not i guess the Barcelona play will be more threatening.. it certainly came to a halt once the lil magician paved way for Henrik Larsson.. anyway quite entertaining especially when the goal came at the 78th min from the brazilian maestro himself..
other than that.. woke up ard 130 today and then went to purchase the newspapers for their classified section.. intensively looking for jobs.. and there's something i noticed and have been meaning to voice out for a while.. for u girls out there who has been proud abt the "fact" that recently there has been the rise of power in the feminine aspect, dun be misled.. if what i sae is true, most of the jobs available in the papers can be considered to be made for all of u.. not guys in majority.. furthermore its just how the society works.. firstly, a guy will be more interested to be talking to a lady rather than their own gender in dealings and 2ndly, a lady would be more confortable in the presence of another lady.. come on juz admit it.. we all pose as a threat to u.. our towering and threatening presence scares u.. we are the powerhouse in any industry and u all cannot contend with that thus further on, spare yourselves with these "advantages".. its unfair to us yet u basked in ur own found "glory"..
the audacity..
posted by: mfirdie @ 12:21 AM
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Tuesday, March 07, 2006
right right right..
when will this ever stop.. we come here again day after day to write how we feel and for wadever purpose i may ask.. reading stories lamented from other ppl's lives and comparing them to our own.. yet again everyday seems a habitual effort to read and once more we are here in this lonely blog of mine..
typing so effortlessly on the computer.. i juz came back from a gym session in the afternoon.. it was only yesterday that i realised.. i had grown ultra fat.. not juz fat but like i said ultra fat.. those kind like a mother of 6 mths pregnancy kind of fat and day by day i fear it is taking its toll.. therefore i realise the importance on decreasing my posterior.. i sure wont wan to flaunt a tummy and kinda think of it.. my NAPFA is coming.. oh man.. so many years(2 actually) without NAPFA and yet it had rose from its grave to haunt the lazy ones.. the incapable ones that have now turned into slouches for it to prey on.. and doomed to fail!!!
before all this i was that skinny guy that eat a lot.. and then i became the guy that eat alot and now looking a lil plump.. and then to my horror.. ive got a belly.. NO NO NO.. of all atrocities not happening to me.. no way.. therefore im cutting down on my snacks.. no more supper.. no more 2 plates.. im gonna eat half a plate.. i dun care and like faliq told me.. its time for fruity night.. my night diet would be fruits fruits fruits.. no more oily delicacies.. i promise myself to lose weight.. not much really.. juz wanna get rid of this tummy.. hehe.. gonna be updating u all on my progress.. and let me rush to bathe before i miss my "no eating at night" curfew shall we?
niwaes.. i still need a job..
posted by: mfirdie @ 1:30 AM
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Monday, March 06, 2006
Maybe she doesnt really care..
From her quote "Whatever.."
Always the haging up of the receiver..
always trying to get rid of me..
Alrite.. i noe wen im not wanted..
posted by: mfirdie @ 8:31 AM
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type type type..
had a wonderful day with dear today.. met her after two days off.. hmm not my fault shes the one who insisted on not meeting often.. i guess it could be a good practice and it takes some getting used to since shes goin to start work again soon and probably ill have to find a job to fill my time too.. went out with her for movies and finally got to us emy voucher on Genki Sushi today.. Final destination3 was an okay movie.. not really that interesting.. the deaths were not taht gory as ppl said it would be.. my fav death would be the one with the stapler gun.. it was the one that hurt the most in my opinion.. Yeowch!! den had hmm i dunno late lunch at Genki.. cant go for the buffet so had to opt for dine in instead.. i ordered Chicken and the rice.. but yucks i forgot my dislike for teriyaki sauce so haf to gulp down that awfully salted sauce.. den settled for a few plates of sushi amounting the bill to 31.65.. but hey ive got a 30 dollar voucher.. so guess how much i paid.. yup yupp.. lucky ass..
i think i wan to repeat the semester that i juz had.. i dunno i suddenly feel the urge to do well.. and i certainly for sure that i didnt for this semester.. results being out maybe in two weeks and preparing myself, i noe i will at least fail one or maybe juz scrap thru with a D.. thats D for disgraceful.. for all my 2 years in poly ive never gotten a D.. my lowest was C+ which was the higher average.. ranging from D to AD.. C+ was a lil above average and to think my grades are lowering to the disgraceful standard leaves a bitter taste in my mouth.. yucks.. so yup tentativeluy thats my plan.. hope everything goes well then..
oh ya.. I NEED A JOB.. and im picky..
posted by: mfirdie @ 6:47 AM
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Sunday, March 05, 2006
the day became late..
recently i had tried to get back with the peeps that ive met through the years.. i tried to get in touch with them once more.. i juz felt the guilt in leaving them out while i did my stuffs and there were certainly times when i could not care less about them while i go about doing my stuffs in my new-found life.. then one day i realise that it was merely a transition.. i will eventually end up with nobody to lean onto.. noone to accompany as frens to anywer if i keep doing the things i do.. i will only have frens to lose them at the end of the period.. expiry date like u might say.. and then its from the start all over getting new ones.. and losing them yet again..
but yet ive found a new found truth.. they lead their lives.. they dun need me.. they are happier without me.. and i no longer has a place in their lives.. noone will accept me.. thats when reality sets in.. noone needs me.. what am i of use?
posted by: mfirdie @ 12:06 AM
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Saturday, March 04, 2006
hi morning..
finally on a morning where i can wake up peacefully.. nothing to worry me.. no more exams and stuffs that has to be done.. no dance practices to go to.. i feel so free.. so relaxed.. no rush no hurry to do anything.. yup.. haix finally a peace of mind.. i dun feel so stressed up no more.. no more things to do.. everything is done.. all tahts left to bother me would be my financial difficulty which is why i have said that im looking for a job..
anyways been thinking for a new theme for our dance performance.. i guess that certain parts can be kept almost the majority of the performance but i noe that certain tweaks has to be changed.. i feel strongly for this idea even tho the one that we have now is generally unique.. but to think that our competitors will be doing better certainly poses as an extra challenge for us to improve on the nature of our performance..
My idea would be something like this..
Starting with a picture depicting the rejected "Guy" within the group of girls dancing and then pushing him aside.. then we continue with the sound of the Pink Panther as the bg with sobs and cries wailing from this Guy of ours.. up till then he will be influenced to succumb to the lure of Ketamine where we will tune the song to MACHO MACHO MAN.. when he gets the drugs and become high.. this in turn attract the original group of girls who thinks he looks cool.. With this comes the demand for the drugs from the girls with the song,.. Giv It To Me Baby!! Uh Huh Uh Huh!!.. den getting high suddenly the effects comes in.. thus the Thriller arise.. with the end showing the sufferings of the addicts.. I Want To Break Free ensued with us getting rid of the drugs and breaking free of its hold.. finally the finale.. Get Your Ass Off..
Hope they accept it.. we'll see how it goes..
posted by: mfirdie @ 8:06 PM
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had my practice today at studio wu with the rest and it was fun.. having been able to meet up after a one week break from the dance.. it was totally refreshing.. it was always great to get together with the guys and gals of YeaBah.. outside of dance i mean.. during practice some of them truly can be a pain in arse.. hey.. we all will be at one point or another.. its juz a matter of wen.. niwaes the prac went good had comments from the "supposed" public of our dance.. the normal stuffs i hear abt the energy level and the clarity of our plot.. had some few suggestions and yup thats wer we build upon it..
had lunch with them at lau pa sat.. i was totally broke.. had no money to spend trying to clear my debts.. it sucks to owe ppl money and my dad still owes me 600 bucks for my allowance.. haiz talk abt a tight budget.. yup so despite my financial difficulties i had quite a meal.. had Chicken Rice plus Chendol plus Vanilla Coke all in the sense of sharing with the others of cos.. then we stayed there for ard half an hour doing wad we do best.. crap and crap and crap and crap.. our laughter totally filled that dull foodcourt and it has to be honoured with the presence of YeaBah..
went for a walk-in interview at Nike Inc at Suntec and totally felt so i dunno.. disappointed cos of the way i was rejected.. happy that im still jobless.. but anyways i have to talk abt it.. hmm i approached one of the staff there enquiring abt the position he was good-looking enough and then i saw him disappear to the back and out came the manager.. i tell u.. the staff members were all more good looking than her sia.. i was even more presentable to be in that position.. she had those kind of hair that looks like u put a bowl on top of your head and trim it.. be-spectacled.. lanky and a bit of buck toothed even.. i din take offence on that its juz the way she treated me.. she was like so abrasive.. is this the kind of service she provides? oh man.. she fail sia.. she din even say hi!! she came and blurted out, wad are u doing now? so i told her studying and having my hols and stuffs.. then she asked sarcastically i might add, then u wan take part time.. so i told her ya.. i was willing to do so while on my vacation.. then she frantically waved her hands in front of my face, i could even bet everyone in the store saw her reaction... NO NO NO.. we not looking for temp staff.. we need someone at least 6 mths.. the she walked off.. i was stumped and like wah lau.. i blurted out a thank u and walked out..
What An Ass..
posted by: mfirdie @ 6:38 AM
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Friday, March 03, 2006
hmm woke up this morning to find my phone receiver hanging by its chord and ot reminded me of what unfolded last nite.. hmm sorry dear.. i din noe i fell asleep and stuffs den in that state i dunno what i did or say.. Muah.. forgive me hao ma.. i was tired and i did no intended to sleep.. it was not the CD that u gave me either.. dun get the wrong idea hao ma.. truthfully watching or listening to anything else during that time would also putg me to slp.. i tried my best to stay awake tho.. hoped that u went to slp thereafter and didnt stay up of not i wll feel real guilty..
long day awaits for me to day.. have a dance pra later on in the morning.. and ive decided to go for an interview.. walk-in interview at the NIKE franchise at Suntec City.. hope i get it cos im really not one who go on looking and looking.. im not like a girl.. they go on searching for hours.. i belive guys noe what they wan.. they wont bother looking around for an item.. i guess we are more precise creatures.. we are specific and we usually end up buyibg the things that we set up to buy.. ya anyway realli hope to clinch the job as if not then it will be an awfully long time before i gained my enthusiasm to go for another.. and haven u heard im not one to settle for 2nd choices.. yup.. so there u go..
my dear gonna have a busy day today too.. take care of yourself hao ma.. I love you..
posted by: mfirdie @ 4:23 PM
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Thursday, March 02, 2006
hmm oh well well well.. my exams are over.. and looking at how i did today.. hmm im officially gonna repeat this module.. i hope they squeeze it into my timetable for next year instead of staying another semester to repeat this idiotic one that stood out.. haix.. actually im not disappointed or anything its not that i nv studied and it was a situation wer i realli dunno wad was going on.. to think of it, it was similar to the times wen i studied for Chem and Physics for sec sch.. for all those who dunno i got E8 and F9 for those subs respectively..
hmm so so so.. wad am i going to do.. a whole period of hols await and of cos!!! preparations for the dance finals.. hopefully we'll win something.. my trophy case has been left barren for a while now.. i guess its time to refill it with its glory.. all golden and silver shines from that Fish Tank i call a trophy case.. seriously my gramps picked it up from downstairs even tho we dun have fish and wen i came home.. there goes my trophies.. from my sec sch sports meets.. my hockey stuffs and my dance.. all in one.. actually it looks kinda stylish to think of it.. hmm the last time wen i got a trophy was for this table soccer game.. u noe the ones wer u play at the arcade and stuffs.. i went to a pub one nite watching the Man U vs Liverpool game with my Arsenal jersey on.. HAHA.. of all the places and i got a helluva lots of stars it was like.. "are u lost or something?"..
niwaes i and my buds signed up for the comp and i ended up beating the both of them on the road to finals wer i eventually lost out to the ah-pek there that muz have been spending most of his time on the table other than picking his nose.. it was a match to 5 goals.. he beat me 5-2.. he was damn slow la.. he took his time.. i was like so bored.. i hit him on the counter attack.. but truly.. old balls work.. haha.. niwaes my aim was to get into the finals and then from there win.. cos it was said earlier will have trophies for 1st and 2nd placing.. i won the liverpool bracket trophy and it was extra big la.. so paisey carry it home.. summo in an arsenal shirt.. OH MAN!! haha my liverpool supporter mux be so pissed at me.. he offered to buy the trophy from me all the way home.. I say NO!! haha.. yup so for all that.. i dunno wer it all comes from..
im looking for a job.. preferably at a video games store.. haha.. saw one in the papers yest.. it was so made for me..
posted by: mfirdie @ 8:25 PM
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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
i wish i can make my dear dear happy everyday..
juz like how happy she is today..
posted by: mfirdie @ 9:01 AM
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