Thursday, April 13, 2006

am i one who loves life? ive been made inton one i suppose.. one who noes how to enjoy life and keep himself far from the troubles of the world.. i choose not to indulge and i always choose to shy away.. that is my life.. a meaningless one in my very eyes.. wad do i do with it? what do i attain from it? i have yet to find my absolute answer..

its the dreaded feeling i have early in the morning.. the alarm sounds at 930 and on a bright cheerfully sunny day i would have awoken and make an early start to the day.. but yet time and again i laze around closing and shut tight my eyes into sleep that will never come.. i lay still as the time passes and it soon turned to hours of the morning and finally i rise from my slumber.. the sucky feeling still stayed true and i start off my day.. being here, being me describes a day with no intention.. how i cherish to have something to do yet alone i am too lazy to go in search.. yet when i have i dread and regret my choice and wished for free time.. my life has no balance.. there wont be a time where everything is sufficient.. i constantly find myself in a situation where i am having too much of one or another.. and yet u still ask why cant i accept something in between.. u said to me there is no such thing as in between.. im living in a life where there is no such thing as in between.. i mix them up and yet i still end up the same.. having too lil or too much.. but wad am i to do.. thats how my life will go..

i dread the feeling when i awake..

posted by: mfirdie @ 2:05 AM

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